an collection of various media that i have recently seen/played or just really enjoy in general!

MOVIES

my favorite movies! those which i have recently seen can be found on my letterboxd


Phantom of the Paradise (1974)


Psycho (1960)


Black Christmas (1974)


Cruising (1980)


Happiness (1998)


Fantastic Planet (1973)


The Holy Mountain (1973)


Santa Sangre (1989)


Videodrome (1983)


Ichi the Killer (2001)


There Will Be Blood (2007)


GAMES

my favorite games that i have completed or am currently playing (not including VNs)


Silent Hill 2


Devil May Cry


Postal 2


Hylics 2


Hatsune Miku: Project Diva Mega Mix


Hades


Disco Elysium


Phoenix Wright: Ace Attorney


Harvester


BOOKS

books/manga that i have (relatively recently) finished & what i'm currently reading.


"Demons"

Author: Fyodor Dostoevsky

Year Published: 1871

Current Status: Currently Reading (55%)

Favorite Character: Alexei Nilych Kirillov

General Thoughts: I need to get back into this book and finish it, but the summer has really eaten away at my ability to read actual books. Nonetheless, I am really attached to this novel!! It's super interesting and I think I might like it a little more than CnP, but I'm not entirely certain. It's definitely a lot more homoerotic (shockingly). These nihilistic revolutionaries are so strange, man! There's a multitude of scenes I've marked which are insane out of context. Or even in context. As seen above, Kirillov is currently my favorite character. I dunno, he's just very charming! I too am severely depressed, have unconventional philosophical opinions about god, but also care deeply for humanity, and enjoy strong tea (at night! tsss~).


"Dogra Magra"

Author: Yumeno Kyūsaku

Year Published: 1935

Current Status: Barely Started; will actually read eventually

Favorite Character: TBD

General Thoughts: Yes. Of course. I am, in fact, reading this because of the intrinsic role it plays in the plot of Hashihime. Leave me alone! I love weird, surreal, psychological novels! The general idea of it reminds me of another book I've read, The Room, in the sense that you are trapped within the mind of this protagonist which you know little about (except for a small percentage which is slowly revealed) and reality is something which you have to interpret entirely on your own based upon their unreliable narritave. Therefore, it seems like something totally up my alley.


"The Consumer"

Author: Michael Gira

Year Published: 1995

Current Status: Occasionally Reading (36%)

Favorite Vignette: So far? "The Consumer, Rotting Pig" (specifically "Homage to my Former Self, by R.P.")

General Thoughts: Since this novel is made up of a collection of various vignettes/short stories, ones which are extremely disturbing and mentally draining, I read a part of it every now again when I'm in the optimal mental state for somethin' real fucked up. So far, I really like it. I know some people feel negatively towards Michael Gira's writing, given how over the top it is in its depravity in a fashion almost akin to A Serbian Film, but I enjoy it for that exact reason! The chapters are rather short, so it's not as though it overstays its welcome. It's really just a brief read into whatever new fucked up thing Gira thought up for that chapter, and a bit of insight to the stories behind some of the songs in Swans' early catalogue. It's at least more respectable than a lot of splatterpunk fiction I've looked into. It's a bit hard to find physical copies of this book without spending a lot of money, but I do own a german copy of it!


"The Color Purple"

Author: Alice Walker

Year Published: 1982

Current Status: Finished

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"Crash"

Author: J.G. Ballard

Year Published: 1973

Current Status: Finished

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"Crime and Punishment"

Author: Fyodor Dostoevsky

Year Published: 1866

Current Status: Finished

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"Pride and Prejudice"

Author: Jane Austen

Year Published: 1813

Current Status: Finished

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"Naked Lunch"

Author: William S. Burroughs

Year Published: 1959

Current Status: Finished

Favorite Character: A.J.

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"Trainspotting"

Author: Irvine Welsh

Year Published: 1993

Current Status: Finished

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"The Room"

Author: Hubert Selby Jr.

Year Published: 1971

Current Status: Finished

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"Maurice"

Author: E.M. Forster

Originally Written: 1913

Current Status: Finished

Favorite Character: Alec Scudder

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"Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas"

Author: Hunter S. Thompson

Year Published: 1972

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"Call Me By Your Name"

Author: André Aciman

Year Published: 2007

Current Status: Finished

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"The Great Gatsby"

Author: F. Scott Fitzgerald

Year Published: 1925

Current Status: Finished

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"American Psycho"

Author: Bret Easton Ellis

Year Published: 1991

Current Status: Finished

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"Exquisite Corpse"

Author: Poppy Z. Brite

Year Published: 1996

Current Status: Finished

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TELEVISION

my favorite TV shows in general, including shows I... haven't... completed


ANIME

anime (series/OVAs, not movies) that i've finished & what i'm currently watching